STILLNESS 

Awakening to the quiet frozen stillness as I gasp for my breath,

Silence is heard, as you are not by my side holding my hand,

The snow will be fallen from the sky as the winter season will bring death,

I will continue searching for that light wherever you are in the promise land.

 

My blazing heart will lead me to your soft voice and glamorous smile,

I miss the smell and the downy touch of your baby skin, listening to your heartbeat,

The waviness of your lengthy hair and your vivid brown eyes is your unique style,

I will travel any distance through any land, air, sea, for the chance for us to meet.

 

The whiteness of your teeth and your gleaming face has made shivers all over my spine,

Waters will be gushing in the bright blue seas and new tracks will be marked in the roads,

I want to wipe away your tears and come to save you so you will be forever be mine,

I will always be by your side and I wait for you for that kiss even if I am your ugly toad.

 

My world is empty and blurred; I am lost and have no direction to follow without you,

I will sacrifice to hear the coolness of your breath and a moment to look into your eyes,

I want to hear your laughter and relive the moments, the memories will always be like new,

The air is crisp and there is no reflection without you as everything seems like it dies.

 

This letter should be given to my wife that I love with no time for rejection,

As I promise her that I would write letters throughout our lives together,

Denise you are everything, a part of me who completes me and is my perfection,

You are my shining light, or the one to hold in a storm or any other type of weather.

 

These are the things I wish for things to be, but you can expect it will change,

The authorities have gone too far and now we have to live a different life,

I have to live with uncertainty that you are Denise and things are not arrange,

This investigation they took it all away except for the scars they used with knives.

 

Vanishing moments will now never be replace of what could of happen,

Our children will not know their father of a person, who he used to be,

The holidays will be different seeing their expressions as they are unwrapping,

As they could not only understand what their mother means to me.

 

A call for help and to have fairness in the financial markets leads to a great disaster,

It’s gone, taken away, the stillness comes back and silence is all that I hear,

Hollowness in my everyday living is brought upon me which couldn’t come faster,

I went through a lot to be where I am at today only because I love you, my precious dear.

 

My golden arches still brings me to you and the day you folded a Happy Meal box,

Will never be taken away or forgotten which will always be inside my mind,

Precious moments and memories will be in my treasures and will be always unlock,

I look forward to the elder years with you so I can let all the recollections unwind.

 

I love you; you are my sweetheart, the one who is called Betty,

The one who I want to spend every moment with throughout eternality,

My soul has been with you all the time even if they are petty,

I am the one and only, Ryan, and can rest assure with certainty.