BEATING HEART

 

I can feel your beating heart,

And it’s like a gigantic wave,

But if you realize from the start,

They caused all this and made it pave.

 

Would you listen to I

They are so phoney to bear,

You know that it’s in my eyes,

They are not supportive to care.

 

I am a part and half of you,

Did they ever take care of me?

No since, they are not true,

As you are blinded to see.

 

Who put you through this?

They did the whole 5 years,

As it was going to be public insist,

They made you cry all those tears.

 

I have made you proud to fit,

I have given all I got,

You lost confidence a bit,

But you will bounce back, being hot.

 

When I saw you three weeks ago,

You were like a firefly burning,

Giving me assurance, not to let go,

But they got to you with a turning.

 

Since, today I saw happy but also,

Someone who was talked into,

Just keep holding on, it’s a tussle,

You know that I’m stuck like glue.

 

What I am trying to say is that, the people who surround you, have never taken good care of you, and if they had, it was their obligation.  What they have put me and you through for the last 11 years +, is inhuman and not characteristic.  No one ever took care of me, except you who made sure that I was protected and assured me all the time.  The only reason they took you, was not for your safety but for it not to go public.  I am the only one who can take care of you and that will happen soon.  They have hurt you in so many ways, and I will not allow anyone to hurt you.   For all the emotions that we have been through, someone needs to be accountable.  But they pass the blame at everyone else.

 

 There was never a reason why they went this far to break us apart for that long and cause so much pain and agony. They try to destroy everything that we had, but our love is stronger than anything.  I know what they are trying to do with their manipulation, and cheating ways.  I only trust you and I know that you trust me.  Sure, I am glad that they have protected you, but they are feeding you wrong information as they only want to protect themselves.  I have never made you feel like this, as I have only provided happy and cheerful moments.  Until 2006, of what they intentionally did to us.  Why would you agree to be part of their regime for?  Because you believe in me and wanted for them to be punished.  As they would say, love will find its way, if its love.   I am not having any doubts, but I haven’t communicated with you in over 6 years and have spoken to you.  You are going to ask me so many questions, like why I didn’t do certain things in the last 6 years to get you back faster.  Well the answer to that, is that you were always with me and still are.  I felt your soul every day and was a part of me.  If you would just listen to me, but no one wants to hear me speak since they are afraid of the truth.  That they don’t want to hear that I love you and I’m so in love with you, what everyone has purposely done to us, and that how corrupted everything is.  Sure, people might think I lost a few screws because God speaks to me, but it is true.  I was a doubter myself, I didn’t believe it at first, but after the 5^th time, you will believe it’s true.  Now, you might ask, why did I post everything on the internet for?  Shouldn’t it be private?  Well the answer to that, is there is no way for me knowing that you would ever read my letters if I gave it to someone else.  Since, they are corrupted and have and will do anything to hide the truth.

Plus, our lives are so public since, we are being monitored 24 hours a day.  There is never no privacy.  I will always live like that.  There is so much damage what they have done to us, I don’t know where to start. 

 

My heart always leads me to you, and I know that you have never changed either.  I didn’t meet a girl who is in disguise so I have to figure out if she is the right person or not for me.  Why would they ever put you in a position like that for?  Simply, they don’t think of you first.  No one puts you first except me.  They are controlling and influencing you of wrong choices.  Only can I heal your heart and heal mine at the same time.  Did you ever stop and wonder why they never took care of me for?  Because they obviously don’t care about you.  They know how you think and exactly how you are feeling or what will you be feeling.  I am the only one who can take care of you and the children.  I am your man and I promise that I would protect you for your life.  Why did it take six years for you to be away for so long and miss raising our children and seeing me for?  They never explained to you of so much damage they have and will cause.  Well, I am stopping that right now as there will be no more pain since you will have me to hold and cry on my shoulder.  I can feel you smile and are assured that I am and always was the right person for you. Love you RYAN