They want revenge in any way they possible can think of.  So, they can influence you to do what ever you think, would I ever act in that manner, simply no or have I ever thought like that in my whole life, just NO, AND NEVER.  Just because they believe can out last me, will never warrant how much I love you and our children.  Why did you want to become shielded for?  Simply, because you don’t know how much corrupted people are.  They can tell you, to pick up a rock and influence you to throw it in the water, if they wanted to.  They are influencing you on untrue irrational behaviour, which they have simply caused to their advantage.  To try to ruin us for one purpose, to hide the truth of what they have deliberately have caused.  But, you are getting carried away for nothing.  I know that you believe me, and will be beside me.  I know that you listen to my conversation and immediately reacted in illogical way.  Let people judge me, and even yourself but it is simply untrue who I am or who I will ever be in a lifetime.  Why did they go to these extremes, simply because they know that I am certainly right and they don’t want our love to prosper.  They try to dig a hole that is so deep, for me and you to never climb out of it.  But we will both rise to anything that they try to sabotage. Why can’t you come just naturally and not be hidden to listen to me.  Simply, because they are afraid to hear the truth of what they have caused and are responsible for.  For over 6 years you have been gone, I use to think of you about 75% of the time in my mind and say your name repeatedly, then ever since I moved to my Spy Mother’s house, they did something to me.  Which is ECT or EET therapy, they hook things to the brain and release waves to it to influence you behaviour.  It is true, simply people who had so much trauma, they can try to remove those memories out of your head. Now, what they did is add untrue memories for their devious purpose.  They can control a person’s mind.  Why all of a sudden it is only like 25% now, I think of you and that It’s hard to visualize an image of you.  Because, simply of what they have deliberately have caused, remove positive thoughts and added them with thoughts they want to use against me, since they want to maintain control.  People who know me, and have been beside me, will continue to do so.    Why can’t you ever listen to me?

Just like how you believe nothing was happening this whole time.  And then whack, it hit you by surprise. Well, this has hit me by surprise too of what they are trying to do.

I want you to know, that we are going to overcome anything and be who we always are and will always be, my Denise and your Ryan.  Deep down you know who is true, even if people try to influence you or hear or see things that are totally illogical.   It just doesn’t make sense, what makes sense it you and me together.