Denise,

I want you in my life, not just writing letters.  I need you to be visible so you can spend time with one another.  Why does it have to be like this for?  No one tells me anything,  and I have to try to figure things out myself.  Put yourself in my position.  Everything that happened with no direct answers from anyone, everyone you look at is covering everything up.  So, obviously you will jump from one reality to another reality. Since, everyone is hiding the truth.  I’ll I know is how good a person you are, who has sacrifice everything for me and you.  You are the person who has always stood by my side.  I don’t understand, why it is hard right now for you, if that is the case.  I’ll I know, is that whatever that happens, or if it ever does.  That we belong with each other.

I don’t want more years to go with us being apart.  I want to see our children.  I want you.  We have been through all the battles, and we can manage to face any battle that comes and tries to swallow us up.  I am not sure if you have to make a choice or made a choice already, but whatever it is, whatever that has you in my life.  We are going to dance in the rain, and I am going to kiss you.

What you don’t know, is that most of the memories of us or about anything in my life has been erased.  They did something to wipe out the thinking and the process to recall.  I need you to tell me, everything that we have done in our lives.  I am not saying everything is wiped out, but the details are getting less day by day.  It’s like, I don’t know what I did 2-3 days ago, where I ate, what I actually did, and what actually took place.  Some people might think that abnormal, but I could recall and have a large capacity for my memory before.  I could visualize details and the surroundings, but It is getting less every day that  goes by.   So, if you think I am the same person when you left six years ago, I am not.  I know that I would stay by your side, if anything happened to you and take every second with you, to make sure you were alright.

That’s why I need you, to tell me everything, how are lives were and will still be.  That’s why you don’t understand, If I have put you in any position, that you now have act as my best benefit for me and you.  No one allowed me to give a victims report, and I could not write anything down on paper.  I had the whole investigation in my mind, but they are trying to eliminate some memories from hypnotizing me and other applications.  As, I did my best for society as I was detecting the fraud and giving people too many fair chances. Then experiencing a stroke with a incompetent mind due to psychosis of being fearful of your life and waiting for a call for help.   It was too long, no one responded back. It was crucial on Friday afternoon, as I gave a life signal, but no response.  Then trying for help but no one responded again as they avoided emails and phone calls.  The Monday morning was so damaging that someone should of called me, but no one ever did.  My mind blew apart.  I have always been loyal, faithful, caring, and loving towards you.  They caused the impairment with the mind due to psychosis and being so fearful of your life knowing the corruption of loopholes, not by any other source.

I appreciate your sincerity and your generosity.  Please take care of me and act for my best interest.  Whatever encompasses me, you and the children.  I love you, even if my words are not highly spoken.  We will dance in the rain.  My love.

Ryan XOXOXO